| Saturday, June 2, 2007 |
| Why |
I seriously have issues with the way I think, my brains and everything else. WHy?
WHy am I doing what I am doing? Am I wrong to be who I am?
Why do I need to care? Why am I affected even with the slightest thing?
WHy cant I be unmovable? Why am I touched?
WHy do I use my heart to make decisions sometimes?
Why cant I be logical all the time?
Why am I doing all these? Who can understand how I really feel inside?
Why cant I control my mind?
WHy change and why wait for changes?
Why bother in believing? So what if you lose your faith?
WHy build a future?
Why do I get hurt easily?
Why do I always think that way?
Why am I penning down my tots? Is the confusion warranted?
Why try so hard? WHy canT I give up?
It is an on-going battle, a Tug-of-War with myself - a self-protective quality, yet destructive and non-rewarding at the same time.
Why ask so many why-s when there are no answers to them?
Because I am who I am? Because I don't know God's direction for me?
Im distracted again, again, and again. argh. Time to start mugging..... |
posted by kai @ 1:53 PM  |
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Hey hun.. it is very normal to feel the way you are feeling. When the time is right, tiny signs would show you the asnwers to your questions. It is a tough journey but you are not alone: we are all here supporting you every step of the way. *muaks* Love you hun...
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Thanks lovely.. Ur really sweet. I really do hope that the answers appear soon. Heard from Ruth that you are having quite a rough time with ur homies, Hugss! Lets have a good girlies' night when we
are back in SG ok? Big Hug.
Good luck for your exams dearie!
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Thanks hun.... *muaks* And yes we must have a girlie night - how does cookies, manicure, pedicure, chic flicks and a sleeppver sound?? I can't wait to see all of you.. I miss you guys so so so so so so much it is driving me insane! Can we go back to our poly days again?? :P
The answers will come.. they will come.. we just have to wait and keep our senses open as they come in all forms.. *hugs*
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Hey hun.. it is very normal to feel the way you are feeling. When the time is right, tiny signs would show you the asnwers to your questions. It is a tough journey but you are not alone: we are all here supporting you every step of the way. *muaks* Love you hun...