| Wednesday, April 23, 2008 |
| Life Quest |
Im seriously depressed.
Today someone challenged me about my beliefs about God, about the eternal life or suffering after death.
But shouldnt we have duties in life we are supposed to fulfil before we end these Earth hours? I dont want to die until I have fulfil mine. My parents are important to me (or rather I think Im very important to them) and I dont want them to have failed investment if I just abruptly ended my studies for whatever reasons, including Death. Sounds stupid.. but what if the world ends tmr or next year? I wont have enough time to spend time with my family, to make them happy and to repay them for whatever kindness they have shown me. Who understand the unbearable feelings and obligations ? I cant die before Im done with the Earth and I sincerely hope that God allow that to happen. Im not mad, IM just emotional and unstable but surely, its just a stupid night and tmr will be fine and all good.
Today I had student clinic at a tertiary hospital. It was saddening as we were guided around the ICU. Patients look almost lifeless on the beds with intricated tubes all around their bodies. Most families beside them looking half as helpless and almost looking half as dead. This is just part of life and as our jobs as dietitians, we are trying to lessen their burden of the last few hours of their lives (for some). Ok.. this is not the bulk of our work, but still.. how happy can a hospital setting be ? And to think that the dietitians can remain so cheerful, it must really take some work to learn the tricks of trade.
Enough of that.... I shall go shower and sleep away the depression. Hopefully, by tmr, all the depression will wear off and I will be the cheery girl again. |
posted by kai @ 12:18 AM  |
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| Saturday, April 19, 2008 |
| I learn |
Motives carefully or unconsciously crafted into words,
Subconscious feelings being spelled out in actions,
Hurtful words for the beings she was supposed to love,
Advice from the experienced and the perpetual naiveness,
Who wins? And who loses?
Im intrigued by the human behaviour and the intricacy of the mind.
The world is full of people with differences.
I learn.
And,
Love between a man and a woman should not be conditional.
When beliefs and principles of life are vastly conflicting,
When habits get more than just annoying,
And it seems that compromise is not worth comtemplating,
My mind tells me the obvious.
If you cant be what I need, dont be?
Im intrigued by the human desires and the complexities of love.
The world is full of people with differences.
Again, I learn.
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I just got done with my mids today. A break for me this weekend ? Unfortunately not, I still have tons of assignments and admin stuff waiting for me to do. Typical boring student's life I'll say. But you know what? Friday nights are my favourite time of the week! Because it is almost the only day which I dont have to set my alarm clock for the next morning! Why cant there be more than one Friday a week? hmmms.. |
| posted by kai @ 2:33 AM |
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| Saturday, April 12, 2008 |
| Madness Friday |
Yesterday was the craziest friday ever. I was busy from the moment I woke up till saturday early morning. I was totally drained that I slept for 12 hours after that. It will be really unfair if I said that I didnt enjoy myself. Still, Im glad it was over.
My day started off with School:
9.30am Group meeting at school
11.00am Tutorial Class (Debate)
1.00pm Group meeting over Lunch
2.00pm Lecture
to
4.00pm
Now the fun part of the day:
4.30pm Early dinner (ooh i love Pizzas) with Mel
5.30pm Andy Warhol's Art Exhibition
9.00pm Therese's Birthday Party (Happy birthday babe!! Drinking games after cake-
cutting till like 2ish)
I was dead tired by the time I reached my bed. |
| posted by kai @ 11:31 PM |
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